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story time

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:44:00 -0400

at an italian restaurant near my old house, there is a waiter that i basically witnessed undergo gender transformation (is that what you call it?). when i was little he started growing out his hair, and it was a little hard to tell what gender he/she was. my sister asked loudly, “is that a man or a woman?” and the babysitter had to shut her up. i think the waiter heard. i went there a few years ago and i guess her features were much more feminine and she wore a lot of makeup - or maybe she just looked more feminine because of the makeup. i last went in december and i think the transformation was pretty much complete or whatever. basically, she had boobs. and her voice was high-pitched, but it was the kind of high-pitched voice a guy has whenever he tries to imitate a girl. i wonder if hormones can change your voice or she’s talking like that on purpose. this whole thing is pretty confusing. it must suck to be born as a gender you’re not comfortable being.

anyway, that’s the most exciting thing that has ever happened to me.

my mom wants to me “talk”. every time i talk to my parents one of them ends up yelling...

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:28:57 -0400

my mom wants to me “talk”. every time i talk to my parents one of them ends up yelling at me or making me feel bad about myself.

life is a sick joke ha ha

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:24:00 -0400

life is a sick joke

ha ha

i’ve said this before but every time i get a message on facebook or an email it’s...

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:22:00 -0400

i’ve said this before but every time i get a message on facebook or an email it’s someone asking me for help. that’s all i am to people. yup.

ditto

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:37:07 -0400

ditto

i’m really upset and i feel like crying all the time these days. i don’t want to go to...

Sat, 18 May 2013 00:12:35 -0400

i’m really upset and i feel like crying all the time these days.

i don’t want to go to graduation or beach day or anything that involves seeing everyone because i can’t stand them anymore. i don’t relate to anyone here because they are either all shallow or just have bad personalities and if i end up having a graduation party I’m going to run away.

to those of you complaining about how “stressful” getting ready for prom is: why are you...

Sat, 18 May 2013 00:10:00 -0400

to those of you complaining about how “stressful” getting ready for prom is:

why are you complaining to me
you were the ones who wanted to go in the first place
and were desperate enough to go with anyone who asked
so shut the fuck up

you know i try to have to good attitude about life and then shit happens 2 seconds later nothing...

Wed, 08 May 2013 02:39:20 -0400

you know i try to have to good attitude about life and then shit happens 2 seconds later

nothing good has happened to me in months. listening to one good song on the radio a week doesn’t cut it

listening to my parents has been the worst thing i have ever done

wow

i’ve had to do so much shit for other people this year and no one returns the favor and karma doesn’t seem to exist

i don’t want to go to this college and i don’t want to see half my school there. i don’t care about the rankings. why didn’t i apply to some tiny liberal arts school in the middle of nowhere

I’m sitting here crying on my birthday

i hate my relatives

Wed, 08 May 2013 02:34:55 -0400

i hate my relatives

FUCK ALL OF YOU THIS WAS A HORRIBLE BIRTHDAY IM NEVER COMING BACK HERE WHY THE FUCK AM I GOING TO A...

Wed, 08 May 2013 02:18:00 -0400

FUCK ALL OF YOU

THIS WAS A HORRIBLE BIRTHDAY

IM NEVER COMING BACK HERE

WHY THE FUCK AM I GOING TO A SCHOOL THATS 45 MINUTES AWAY

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mad respect for jt

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 03:43:32 -0400

mad respect for jt

themisadventuresofahalfjew: I, I can’t get these memories out...

Fri, 26 Apr 2013 03:34:09 -0400

themisadventuresofahalfjew:

I, I can’t get these memories out of my mind,
And some kind of madness has started to evolve.
I, I tried so hard to let you go,
But some kind of madness is swallowing me whole, yeah

Madness // Muse

even though i’ve done everything i can, i still feel helpless

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 19:40:34 -0400

even though i’ve done everything i can, i still feel helpless