May 2013
12 posts
i’m really upset and i feel like crying all the time these days.
i don’t want to go to graduation or beach day or anything that involves seeing everyone because i can’t stand them anymore. i don’t relate to anyone here because they are either all shallow or just have bad personalities and if i end up having a graduation party I’m going to run away.
to those of you complaining about how “stressful” getting ready for prom is:
why are you complaining to me
you were the ones who wanted to go in the first place
and were desperate enough to go with anyone who asked
so shut the fuck up
you know i try to have to good attitude about life and then shit happens 2 seconds later
nothing good has happened to me in months. listening to one good song on the radio a week doesn’t cut it
listening to my parents has been the worst thing i have ever done
wow
i’ve had to do so much shit for other people this year and no one returns the favor and karma doesn’t seem to...
i hate my relatives
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FUCK ALL OF YOU
THIS WAS A HORRIBLE BIRTHDAY
IM NEVER COMING BACK HERE
WHY THE FUCK AM I GOING TO A SCHOOL THATS 45 MINUTES AWAY
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April 2013
3 posts
mad respect for jt
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even though i’ve done everything i can, i still feel helpless
March 2013
25 posts
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so close
i feel sick
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this is what i want
i want to get in, and i want to obsess about it until august. i want to stalk their website and not shut up about this college, and i want to fantasize about the tiny details. i want to visit soon and have it be everything i remember it was.
i want to meet awesome people and a cute boy. i want to stay up until 3 talking to floor mates . i want to major in whatever i want and i don’t want...
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i’m getting into good schools?!?!?!
why didn’t i apply to more pretty universities wahh
i don’t want my entire life to be decided by a major i picked when i was seventeen
THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IN COLLEGE
oatmeal
new people
snow (?) pleaseplease
new boyssss heh
no one telling me to go to bed
getting away from here/the people here
dining hall food
weird sleeping hours
PHYSICS
not having to take classes i don’t want to…except this depends on where i go
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i gave up on hating you.
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people are so dumb omg i just go through fb and laugh at everyone
also how do you make sure someone knows that you are laughing at them and not with them?!?!?!
physics makes me very excited and hyper. it’s 11 and i’m eating oatmeal.
i feel like as a human being, eating oatmeal is something i should be doing.
so i started last week. it’s not bad.
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so i’m not even gonna try to be nice anymore because i think being myself will get me more karma pts than pretending to be nice to get them
i am a messed up little girl
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deets-
you can obsess over colleges after you get in, freak.
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i am tired of school
and i am tired of being nice
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so three hours of listening to teachers/recordings drone on, and then the rest of school was taking a test. then coming home, going to a pointless doctor’s appointment, and killing myself over stats. i am so angry at everything.
i won’t miss anything here.
i won’t miss school, i won’t miss being my sister’s chauffeur, i won’t miss the yelling in my house, i won’t miss my peers, i won’t miss the indians. because i have no feelings and nothing here. i can’t wait to leave.
with every person i make eye contact with in the hallways there is a “wow i hate you” that goes through my head
I HATE EVERYONE GET OUT OF MY WAY
i saw a picture of c’s admissions officers a couple days ago. i was surprised to see them smiling. they looked like normal peeps. not sure how i feel about that.
and today e told me that she gets 8 hours of sleep a night. how does that even work. why does everyone one else like their school? mine is seriously messed up. there’s no way i could get 8 hours every night. i hate this place...
i can do this
please
just sitting in physics class makes me so happy…it’s nice to have a teacher who actually knows what he’s talking about and it’s good to be in a class that i’m really interested in. it’s just so much fun. i’m not sure if i like physics so much because i’m good at it or if it’s just easy right now.
IT’S SO FUN AND EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE
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no adults take me seriously
i am being SUFFOCATED in this town
stop commenting on how thin i am. and my height
god i’m angry
just finished malcolm in the middle
it was a good run
February 2013
43 posts
starry-eyed
Daffodils
I wandered lonely as a cloud That floats on high o’er vales and hills, When all at once I saw a crowd, A host, of golden daffodils; Beside the lake, beneath the trees, Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.
Continuous as the stars that shine And twinkle on the milky way, They stretched in never-ending line Along the margin of a bay: Ten thousand saw I at a glance, Tossing their heads in...
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i am a shell of bitterness and nothing else
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my attempt at bitter poetry: "Shiny on the...
i resent you
your two-faced smile
your endless secrets and lies
the innocent demeanor you put on
your gossip
no one is good enough for you
how you take what you want
no one else’s feelings matter
the rest of us aren’t worth your time
unless you need help
tool
maybe no one else can see who you really are
but you sure as hell can’t fool me
have fun next year
where...
i am a baaaad person
i resent everyone who has gotten into college who also had legacy
i resent everyone who has gotten into a (good) college
there is literally no one at school i want to be friends with. i think i’ve exhausted all of them. which makes me a tool
i think i’m the best. even though i’m not. but i actually am
i am sarcastic and bitter
i fantasize about being sarcastic and bitter to...
yer-a-starkid:
Another Year Ends - Patrick Doyle...
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i have my personal victories and i guess that’s sometimes enough
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i will slap anyone who calls me babe
